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I started watching all the live vids for Goldfrapp's supernature tour and some of the music videos. I noticed she has her dancers dressed up as different animals doing some crazy dances. The choreographer is Alex Reynolds. It definitely reminds me of Kate Bush. I highly recomend doing some you tube searching for Goldfrapp's supernature tour- ride a white horse live she has white horse dancers with disco mirror heads. In Train she has werewolf monsters in bikinis. on Jools Holland for 2005 performing Satin Chic, she has green peacock geisha girl things. In the Train video she has cat like dancers. That's all I've seen so far...oh live Strict Machine from glastonbury has black horse dancers.

Talula had the odds stacked against her from birth, and she hung on
tight until the end.She'd been somewhat sick for a few days, but it
was typical of her to get diarhea and she was on a low dose of
steroids to boost her system, but Talula started to get severely ill
on Wednesday, and her body wasn't responding to her medication at all.
She went downhill incredibly fast (Fever, diarhea, stopped
drinking/eating, so weak she couldn't stand) I was up with her during
the night, until I decided I had to take her to the doggy emergency.
They put her on an IV to receive fluids and antibiotics as she was
severely dehydrated.

At this point they decided to keep her in ICU and monitor her, and do
bloodwork to see what was going on. I went home and tried to sleep, a
few hours later the vet called back with very bad news.

Unfortunately, she has so many genetic problems...her liver doesn't
produce the right enzymes so she can't get the nutrients out of her
food, there were complicated problems involving the synthesizing of
the proteins in her blood. They discovered her red blood and white
blood cells were completely out of balance- it was just too much for
her little body and despite antibiotics and fluids her fever was at
106. The vet told me point blank that there was no treatment that
would save her, the problems were just too great- and shortly she
would suffocate due to her lungs filling with fluid and die a painful
death.

So the decision was completely clear- I had to put her sleep. .So my
dad, brother and I went to the hospital and got to spend a little
time with her one last time. We told her goodbye and how much we love
her and will miss her.

Needless, to say I'm so sad to lose her- she's been my little shadow
for the entirety of her short 2 1/2 years of life. It's been rough and
she's at peace now. I've been prepared for her death for a long time
because she's had many close calls, and getting to say goodbye and
seeing her go without pain was the best I could have possibly asked
for..There were no "if onlys" or regrets, and no "hard" decisions to
make as there was nothing more I could do for her. It was her time.

I want to thank everyone who has touched my life and cared for her,
especially, the Vicari's,. Bernice, Trisha, Mady, Jeremy, Mom, dad,
Ryan, Matt and Nate, and all my friends. She was a very special dog
and I loved her so much. I will miss her warbles and chirps, her
greeting me at the door, dressing her up in outfits, and her cuddling
with me at night. She was always happy even with her many handicaps,
she never let them bother her.

I decided to have her cremated, and I'll be receiving her ashes in a
week to have a little memorial. I was going to scatter them outside,
but then I remembered that she hated outside, (except to lie in the
sun occasionally) so I think I'm just going to keep them, because she
was the most content and peaceful when she was with me, and I feel the
same for her.

So next time you eat some chicken think of her- she really loved chicken.

Rest in peace Talula,

PS: Never get a pet from Petland, Talula's story unfortunately isn't unique. Many unhealthy pets come from Petland which gets puppies from puppy mills- these people Solely care about profit and cost efficiency, and not about the life or suffering of the animal at all.

Liability

She has no experience. Her abstinence only view clearly doesn't work within her own family. Voters aren't just going to vote for her cause she's a woman. She doesn't know shit about spending, and she is under investigation for abuse of power.

In support and honor of Tori's new album, I'm blogging about something Tori related for each day until the album is released on May 1st which is exactly 2 months, 7 days 10 hours, and 5 minutes from this moment:
Check it out:
http://www.americandollpossecountdown.blogspot.com/

I stumbled upon my lovely little bleak journal here, and realized I haven't written in it since the end of may. hmm. a lot has happened since may. my daddy got a kidney. I helped mentally and physically disabled people all summer. I moved to florida at the beginning of september and I've been here for two whole months already. Wow! I am enjoying living by mr. alantic ocean-- for the most part we're friends. Although, the other day when I was swimming I accidently swallowed sea water and vomited 12 times. That sucked.

I've taken up kayaking, but I'm not strong enough to go for a really long time yet, I need to build up my stamina. I also am a mom to an adopted japanese baby girl-- her name is Talula, and she is not technically human- she is a japanese chin puppy and she is the cutest most adorablest creature to have ever lived.

"I've never had a way with women, but the hills of Iowa make me wish that I could," ~Iowa by Dar Williams

I am graduated officially and I home sweet home for awhile until I move to Florida. Things are progressing along nicely, and I finished my camping fic today. So I guess I will post it, I rushed it a little bit, but I need to think of some better topics for stories. Now that DH is over for the summer I don't know if the Brynetteness will hold my interest all summer, I might have to find a new fandom to write about. Brynette is fun and easy because I know everything I need to know about the characters and the show. During the summer all I watch is Celebrity Fit Club and Kathy Griffin D-List, oh and Criss Angel Mindfreak, I hope that is on this summer- it's so sweet.

Summer Goals
Make money
Spend as much time outside as possible
Run every day
dance every day
sing every day
write every day
drink enough water
float down the river on a tube
find a nice girlfriend
read a lot of books

Camping fic in its entirety
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This is the best article about pornography ever
It's Martin Amis
A Rough Trade
from The Guardian Unlimited
http://www.guardian.co.uk/Archive/Article/0,4273,4153718,00.html

2001 wasn't so long ago, but long enough- I am curious to see if the pornography industry has changed or become even more horrible. I'm sure it's worse now, with the internet gaining even more precedent and technology. Now it's possible to download high quality video extremely quickly, and back in '01 I remember having dial up modem connections and everything had to buffer for ages. I watched a whole movie online like that back in 1999- it took 4 days. Ahh- "Desperation Boulevard" with the ever lovely Judy Tenuta. The trailer is available at www.judytenuta.com. I remember the first time I saw Judy, I sort of fell in love with her, and proceded to accumulate every album, book, and performance I could find. I woke up every morning at 8 AM in the summer to watch her on Match Game '98, she had her little squeezebox and she would occasionally make up songs. Oh, Juuudddy- I even bought an accordion and learned how to play a few songs because of her, and Weird Al.

So I'm all done with college, and now I'm thinking about bigger and better things. I'm moving down to Florida as soon as I get a job. I can't wait to live with Kate's family a block from the beach. I think I'm called to live by water-- Living on the lakefront here in Chicago for 4 years, and now I'm going to the ocean. It must have something to do with the moon and me being a cancer. It's very calming, and centering.

"I guess I'm an underwater thing, so I guess I can't take it personally, there's a sea secret in me and it's plain to see it is rising, but I must flowing--liquid diamonds" ~ Tori

Speaking of the Tori, I spoke to my good friend Barbra, who moved from Chicago to Portland to pursue piano, and I sent her Tori sheet music-- today, I convinced her to buy "Piece by Piece" by Tori, about her myths, archetypes and writing process-- such a good book.

Well, I am just warming up here, because I am about to write a whole lot of fan fic. I really want to write a companion to last night's episode of DH in which Lynette helps Bree, but it might be pushing it. I finally thought a little more about my camping fic, and I think I'm going to finish it off now. Good warm up.

Kathy Griffin: Tuesday at 8 on Bravo "Strong Black Woman"

In Marcia Cross news, she narrates a self-guided breast checker audio thing. How gay is that? Every woman in America is going to pay $5 for Marcia Cross to tell them how to touch their breasts. I really wish it was a video and Marcia demonstrated on herself-- I think if that was the case, they would really make a killing on it. She's not a doctor but she played one on TV, a demented psychotic one- but a doctor none-the-less. Oh, Marcia!

Another distraction was watching 'Housewives' tonight. Oh my god- first off it was amazing and a lot of things came to fruition. I just have to stop reading the god damned spoilers. I knew from them that Susan's house was going down and it was obvious it was Edie's doing, I knew about Andrew seducing Peter. I knew Bree was going to dump him off somewhere-- presumably Camp Henessy, but I was kind of ecstatic when she dumped him in the middle of nowhere. On IMDB some crazy women posted months ago- like at Christmas-- that Bree would eventually disown Andrew, and she said she was just like Bree and her daughter kept doing all these horrible things to her so she disowned her. Everyone on the board told the woman she needed extreme therapy, yada yada yada- well, crazy board poster woman was exactly right! Next week we get to see psychotic nervous breakdown Bree-- where is Danielle going if Bree checks herself into the mental hospital. Marcia Cross must be like, "why do I always have to get sexually rejected and wind up in the mental hospital? Do I exude crazy? Am I that typecast? Damn it!" Has she ever played a stable non-deranged lady? I'm sure she has, but no one is going to remember those roles?


I am so so close-- I mean I have never been closer! Close to what? Graduating College! Yes, this is it folks- finals week! My last finals week for ever and ever! Tomorrow we have a website critique and I have to film my entire cinematography project. Then Tuesday I have a monster modern art final which accounts for 50 percent of my grade, and that is pretty much it. Once I get that final done on Tuesday and film and edit cinematography I am completely done, done, done! So what did I decide to do today? Not working on anything that needs to be done, and writing fan fiction. I did have a blast writing this one though. I got the idea for it yesterday and I worked it pretty much all out in my head this morning, and it ended up having a lot of words- but I thought they were all neccessary. I wasn't sure if the pov and who was thinking what when would be clear, but I hope it is. If I had more time and energy I would have made the sexy scenes longer and more descriptive, but I pretty much conveyed everything. I see now that I don't develop Lynette's feelings for Bree to the point I would have liked to.

Author: Exquisitliltart
Title: Elaborate Fantasy
Rating: R
Description: Psychic Lynette
Disclaimer: Characters belong to Marc Cherry.
Word count: 4,612
Spoilers: None

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You scored as The Surprise! Dyke. Despite the dead giveaways, such as the tattoos and love of the L Word, people still seem to think that you're straight. </td> The Femme Fatale 70% The Surprise! Dyke 70% The Vaginal-Reference-Making Dyke 65% The Little-Boy Dyke 60% The Sprightly Elfin Femme 60% The Pretty-Boi Dyke 55% The Student Dyke 50% The Bohemian Dyke 40% The Stud 35% The Magic Earring Ken Dyke 30% The Hipster Dyke 20% The Quasi-Gothic Femme 20% The Granola Dyke 5% What Type of Lesbian Are You? (Inspired by Curve Mag.) created with QuizFarm.com

This story was just going to be strictly cyber sex, but then I didn't really know how to do it without sounding dumb, and I set Lynette in her office, which we all know has those glass walls-- so there was no way I'd have her in their stripping off her clothes and touching herself. So I just had them meet in person-- which is probably better. So here is the best of both worlds.

Author: Exquisitliltart
Title: Little Red Headed Slut
Rating: NC-17
Description: Cyber Sex. Dedicated to alexxx81
Disclaimer: Characters belong to Marc Cherry.
Word count: 2,930
Spoilers: Inspired by “It wasn’t meant to happen” but doesn’t contain specific spoilers.
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Last night, I applied for a job reviewing gay porn sites for $25 a review- and I got it. I am going to be looking at a lot of gay porn! Whoopee! It's a quick way to practice my writing skills and make some fast cash. Although, it is morally bankrupting- but whatever. I feel I have an objective voice when it comes to the gay web porn community. Maybe, every gay porn reviewer is a bisexual white female---maybe.

In other news, I spent some time looking at youtube videos and I found some fantastic Tori Amos vids that I had not seen. From her performance on ppv in las vegas from '99. That was a rocking concert year! Jebus. Half way through the waitress someone in the crowd yells something offensive, so tori spends a good 3 seconds flipping them off and then growls, "eat my pussy" -- Oh my, do not mess with Tori when she is grooving. Her performance of "Riot Poof" is so beautiful and sexy. She hums so divinely and the end with the "it will all find it's way in time" sounds so delicious and ahh-inducing I played it over and over again. Lastly, her version of "Blood Roses" blows me away! The passion and emotion she hits on as she blithely moves from one progression to another in that song is just fantastic. Not to mention she is touching herself throughout- and the ending breakdown after the cascading banshee wails has me on the floor in the fetal position! Oh Tori-- I love you so much.

Tomorrow night, I am headed to Florida and I am going to get so tan! I have writing to do, but I plan on doing it outside in the hot hot hot sun. Kate's house is always a great and highly fun time, so I can't wait! Happy Easter to me. I'm really excited to see KAte adn Dave and her bischon's Luigi and Buster- and her aunt's puppy, Captain Jack! Ahoy!

I am currently in process of writing out my one woman show for woman's theater workshop. It is a bitch because I have to create a draft and it's a lot of words to write out. I'd rather be writing fan fic, as I have many stories in works and the time window of relevance is passing by. But I guess the sooner I type out my monologues the sooner I can get to writing fan fic. Oh, the creative process how frustrating and time consuming and fantastically wonderful you are.

I found a book on how to be invisible...

some say that knowledge is something sat in your lap
some say that knowledge is something that you never have
some say that heaven is hell, some say that hell is heaven

Get out of my house!
No stranger's feet will enter me
this house is as old as I am
this house knows all I have done
with my key I

this house is full of mmm my mess
this house is full of mmmm mistakes
this house is full of mmmm madness
this house is full of faith
Get out of my house!

I want to be a lawyer
I wanna to be a scholar
but I really can't be bothered
ooh just gimme it quick, gimme,gimme,gimme

'Behind crystalline irises loons can dive where the world bleeds white',
'shred in ribbons of lithium, blow by blow her mind cut in sheets deep layers now unraveling', 'blade to ice and it's double diamond time'. ~Tori Amos

So it's official-- I have finally 'discovered' Kate Bush. I've known who she is for 10 or 11 years- I tried to listen to some of her music when I was younger. I even really like her song "Running up that hill." But until now all of her other music seemed to inaccessible to me, and I didn't 'get it', and it seemed like a lot of work to listen to her, when I have Tori right here to listen to and I already know everything about her.

Well, the other day someone told me to check out kate bush's music videos, interviews and performances on youtube.com and so I did. I spent 2 hours fascinated by her voice, style, movement, etc. I was really blown away, plus, she is a weirdo with a really wry sense of humor.

uthor: Exquisiteliltart
Title: Hideous Revenge
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: Characters belong to Marc Cherry.
Distribution: wherever.
Spoilers: Season 2.
Description: Bree/Lynette. Andrew’s hideous revenge and the ramifications.

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exquisitliltart's LJ stalker is cdsdralion!

cdsdralion is stalking you because you got better results for the 'acronym' thing than them. They are also mentally deranged!

I hear a voice and it says,
"the red of the red rose is it's own
and something no man can divide"
so Saint Germain hear the prayer
of this supplicant
for two Scarlet women, Black Madonna

I am going to start recapping Desperate housewives for my own joy and practice. I love reading the hilarious recaps at tvgasm.com and televisionwithoutpity.com so I want to do my own, based on my opinion then compare to the 'professional' recappers. I think it will help with my writing, as a good exercise. Maybe by the end of the season I will write a spec script.

“When you stop putting yourself on the line, and you don't touch your own heart, how do you expect to touch other people?”

“Some people are afraid of what they might find if they try to analyze themselves too much, but you have to crawl into your wounds to discover where your fears are. Once the bleeding starts, the cleansing can begin.”

“Sometimes you have to do what you don't like to get to where you want to be”

“Women must understand that simply attacking or hating men is just another form of disempowerment. A woman has to realize that when she makes a man crawl it doesn't give her power.”

     
“In our minds, love and lust are really separated. It's hard to find someone that can be kind and you can trust enough to leave your kids with, and isn't afraid to throw her man up against the wall and lick him from head to toe.”

“Our generation has an incredible amount of realism, yet at the same time it loves to complain and not really change. Because, if it does change, then it won't have anything to complain about.”

     
“Rape's not something where you just go, "Well, get over it" or "Believe in love and peace, my child, and it'll all be over." Well, fuck you, that isn't the answer. It's a great thought, OK, but you can go and stick crystals up your butt and get on with it. I'm all for love and peace, but that's not the side I work on. If somebody would talk about it, or worse, joke about it, I would be ready to kill. That's not healing. It was a very long time after that before I was able to be with anyone again. And it has never been the same as it was before”

“I usually get myself into situations that cause sparks. I mean I'm a girl that likes the storms. I love feeling alive, I love walking out in the cold in my bare feet and feeling the ice on my toes.”

Bree's Bong:
flawless Lalique crystal with a delicate silver inlay...

Once you survive the initial shock of being submerged in frigid water (you are going to be paralysed and unable to breathe for a few seconds and you might panic), swimming 50 meters, if you are a descent swimmer, should be a piece of cake!